Monday, July 28, 2008

Diaper Free Baby!!!

On Saturday, I went with my mom to Valley Forge National Park. I got to meet some of the women from the philadelphia diaper free baby Yahoo group. It was absolutely awesome. I took both of the kids, and they had fun. I had fun!

At first, I will admit I was pretty nervous. I thought that this was going to be a group of women with everyone like, my baby is perfect, he was potty trained at 2 months, blah blah blah. But, I went and got over my nervousness, and got to hear some really realistic stories for women. No one's child is perfect, and that makes me happy. I mean I don't want anyone to have problems, but that at least makes me feel normal. I got to see a few potties, and I decided that I have to get a portable potty, a Potette. This little thing is so convenient, you can put it in the car, or it's great for the park. It was an awesome little thing.

I was talking to them about how Damian is fully potty trained, as long as he doesn't have pants on. And about different preferences for diapers, and baby carriers. Everything baby!

Friday, July 18, 2008

EC part 2

So, last night, we went to Wine & Spirits, and bought some alcohol. So, after I put Donovan to bed, I got started with the drinking. The alcohol did me wonders, it gave me a way to express to Daryl how I feel, in a way that he would understand.

I told him that our house is like a pizza, it takes different pieces to make it whole. And that lately, I've felt like I've been putting more into the pizza than he has. So, the second that I said that, immediately he goes, OOOOOH, ok, now I understand. Then, I told him that our relationship is like the cup of soda that you get with the pizza, and that he's been trying to put in more there that I have. Looking back at what I said, that makes us look like some pretty fat people. Oh Well!!

In other news, I finally get to meet some other mothers that are trying elimination communication with their kids. I joined a group on Yahoo, of mothers in my area that do the same thing. They meet once a month, and I think that it's a great idea for me to join in. My mother is going to take me, and we're going to be in the park, which will be awesome!

Which reminds me that I was so excited yesterday, because Damian pooped in the potty yesterday, and that was so awesome. This was his first time. Normally, he will pee in the potty, but not poop. Not that anyone would want to know that.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Can I be a single parent?

I wish that my life could be easy. That I could have the picture perfect life that I always see on TV. But, I guess that life isn't for me. Daryl is driving me insane. I try to help him out with the things that he wants, and what does he do, he bites me in the ass and tells me to screw myself. Not literally, but metaphorically.

Both kids are in daycare, and he still hasn't looked for a job. He doesn't even want to get up in the morning to take his son to daycare. I don't want to get on the bus with both kids if he's around. It doesn't seem fair to me. He wants me to take care of him, and give him everything that he wants, for nothing in return.

I tell him that he should clean the house, and keep it clean since he's home during the day. In return, he tells me that he wants me to show him more affection. Which it has been lacking lately, because I am just so frustrated with him that I feel no type of affection towards him whatsoever. So, I told him, OK. This worked for two days. Then, we went shopping, and bought him some clothes and a Nintendo DS for me, and Damian. We were out so late, and Damian started acting out, because he was hungry. But, his dad just yelled at him, and didn't even acknoeledge the fact that he was acting out because he was hungry. So, we came home that night, and I went to bed, so there was no cuddling. Then yesterday, I came home, and the house was messy, and he didn't even attempt to clean after I got home.

I don't think that I can even do anymore of the kissing and cuddling, definitely no s3x. I can't handle it emotionally opening myself up like that to someone who doesn't appreciate the things that I do for them. He's becoming too lazy for me. Won't even watch his own kids during the day, to save me some money.I don't think that I can take it anymore.

After I had Damian, I stayed home, and he worked. No, I didn't clean much. But, I took care of the baby, and didn't sit on my ass playing the video game all day long. I made sure to do things that were educational and enjoyable for him. I stayed home for 9 months, then I got a job, went back to school, and contributed to our household income.

He hasn't had a job since Damian turned 1. The boy is now 2 and a half, and he hasn't looked for work yet. Then today, I asked him to take some packages to the post office, clean the apartment, and pay the rent. He went shopping with his friend, "tried" to pay the rent, and didn't think about cleaning. I know that he won't clean, because his friend is that and they are playing the video game. I asked him to not have anyone in the house if it is messy. Does he care? NO!

Tuesday, July 1, 2008


So, I have been a pretty busy woman with everything. I have been trying to potty train Damian. No success. Working with Donovan, loads of success.

Yes, I did say Donovan. I was reading blogs, and I came across one with someone talking about Elimination Communication. I heard about it when I was pregnant, but it went into and out of my head in a second. So, this past 2 weeks, I have been sitting him on the potty when I think he needs to go. And he totally gets the point. So, most of the time when I sit him on the potty, he goes, or tries to go.