Ugh!

I feel so horrible. When I go out of the house, I feel like shit. I used to feel so beautiful. But now, I have no idea why I feel so horrible.

After I had Donny, I still felt good until I started to work. I just feel the need to drink smoke and do whatever I can to make the time go faster. These past few days, I actually got hit on by a few guys. This made me feel better. But, I still don't feel right.

I used to have the sex drive of a frickin bunny. Now, I feel like I could go on forever without sex. I don't want it, don't need it. I couldn't care less about it, and that's weird. I wish I could just hit a switch and make it better. But, unfortunately it doesn't work that way. Oh Well!!!